“"One feels that one is fighting a running and losing battle when it comes to the creative use of one's life. It's that thing of trying to put a finger in the dike, and there are so many holes that you don't have enough fingers. It's all leaking away. At some level one is deeply despairing. Most of what is interesting and lively and potentially enduring passes you by, and if you take such things seriously (as you should) you are always doing a rather desperate rescue operation. ”
